Thursday, May 01, 2008

What your prayers feel like...

I've been told over and over how I'm being prayed for... I'm sure it's a few hundred praying for me specifically.

Do you know what your prayers feel like? Like a wave of sweet, quiet peace.

My dad called tonight not too long ago and said they'd taken my mom to urgent care hospice. They are trying to get her nausea and vomiting under control.

As soon as heard his voice on the phone, I knew he was about to say something of importance and I braced myself to hear something bad. I dread the moment I hear she's had a seizure or has gone into a coma...

I know you are praying for me because I can feel a peace surround and quiet me. To be honest I'm not too happy with God right now, but regardless of my feelings I'm going to trust Him and His Word.

One of the hardest things about all this are the kids... Alexander, Nicholas, Claudia and Lorenzo. Those are their names and Nanna means the world to these kids...

My poor sister is struggling with when and what to tell Alex and Nic. It makes my heart break into more pieces thinking about how this will affect especially those two boys.

But I'll tell you, the Lord spoke into my heart and said they are going to make it! Nanna might be leaving this world but Jesus isn't and He's going to stick by us and those kids and see them through.

There are no words to explain or describe the peace that only God can give. When things don't make sense...He gives peace...When times get too tough...He gives peace

I really don't understand why this is happening, but in the end it doesn't matter...I'm determined to follow His love even when it's so dark right now that I can't see but a foot in front of me... I can't yet see the big picture.

I leave tomorrow morning with Claudia for the states. I pray for God's mercy and my biggest hope for this trip is that Claudia gets to sing with her Nanna one last time.

Tonight Claudia prayed this with me: Dear Jesus, Please touch Nanna. Please be with Nanna and help her feel better. Take away her tummy sickness in Jesus name. Amen.

Now I ask, how can He deny the faith of a child?

10 comments:

Granddaddy Dykes said...

Jennifer, Granddaddy and Granny loves you. Jesus said, "I will never leave you nor forsake you."

My Dad suddenly died when I was four years old. My oldest sibling was 19 and my youngest sibling was 6 months old. There were nine of us children. My oldest sibling will be 99 in June. He has been with us all the way.

God will be with you, Julie, and the grandchildren all the way.

You are in our prayers and we love you.

Granddaddy and Granny Dykes

Anonymous said...

Jennifer,

ITs Lisa Vella. I continue to pray for you and your family. Give yourself, Julie, dad and Mom my love..

Love you all,

Lisa

Lisa Taylor said...

Jennifer,
We love you, and we're praying for your family!
Mike, Lisa, and MaryLisa

Anonymous said...

Jennifer,

We love you and are praying for you and your mom.

Amy

Shana said...

love and prayers from seattle - shana

Anonymous said...

Prayers are lifting you and your loved ones up even now, as you are visiting your parents. I have no advice, only what I know: God will bear you up. He will carry you through. And for this very moment, I pray that you are basking in the beautiful love your family members share.

May your time there be rich with memory-making opportunities. I pray too that precious Claudia will get to sing with her Nanna.

God bless you, Jennifer. Your faith is intact, and your fears and questions are candid and real. You are stronger than you can imagine--His strength is filling the weak spots, just as He promises.

Jennifer L. Griffith said...

You are so right. Cling to the truth you've written. Jesus NEVER leaves us alone. Amen.

Stephanie said...

What a sweet prayer from Claudia! I will be praying that she gets to sing with her Nanna, too.

I am sorry to hear about your mom having difficulties right now, but I will pray for her to return home soon to her family.
Love to you!

Anonymous said...

Praying for you in California.. I lost my mom too. I know that doesn't help. I will keep praying

sunnij said...

Dear Jennifer, I'm a friend of your mom, a member of her Faith, Hope & Love writer's group. Your mother is an amazing woman and we have been praying for her through this terrible journey from the beginning. I'm praying for you and your family and your father. I'm glad to read how Jesus has brought you comfort and I know He will continue to wrap you all in His love through the difficult coming days.

God bless,
Sunni Jeffers