Sunday my pastor used an illistration in his sermon, once he was in a hot air ballon and the pilot let him try lift off.
He pulled the cord...
Pulled it again...
Still no lift off.
With laughter the pilot informed him he forgot to release the cord holding them down.
The great question was, "What is holding you down?"
"What's keeping you tied down in your walk with the Lord?"
Is it your job? Your husband? Your wife? Your kids?
What's keeping you from soaring?
I heard the pastor say, "Some of you are wonderful Christian's. You know Jesus. He's your Savior, your friend and He means a lot to you. But some of you will never reach all that He has for you, because you are tied down."
I had one of those unique moments when every sense sharpens, everything unimportant dims and you know, you just KNOW the Lord is speaking to you. Your heart races, your breath quickens, you strain to "catch it." You know it's a life defining moment you really don't want to miss.
For weeks my heart has been searching, wondering... why am I tied down?
In my corner of the World it's very dark. Most times the light in me, trying so desperately to get out is the ONLY light.
My life is THE mission field.
Daily I walk alone with my Savior.
I have no partner to pray with, no friend to hold hands and pray with.
It's just Jesus and Jennifer.
At times it's fear holding me down. Fear is binding and crippling.
Sometimes it's approval seeking that ties me down.
My mom often told me how God has put me in a unique situation to be a witness, a light to a lost and dark world.
With tears rolling down my face I prayed for helping cutting that cord.
I prayed for unique God given opportunities to speak the truth to a dark and lost world.
A world that is desperately and tightly holding it's hands over stubborn deaf ears.