Monday, January 05, 2009

Her words

I found the most beautiful card from my mom, it's not dated but I know it's several years old. It was tucked between some books I was reorganizing. It says:

Thank You,
Daughter,
for Giving Me
Happiness and Smiles
I was thinking about you and how much you mean to me and how I can't imagine my life without you. Daughter, you are a blessing that I'm forever thankful for. I love being with you, and every time we're apart there's a little part of me that stays with you.
It goes on but those words... a little part of me that stays with you, just reached out and grabbed my heart. It was as if she was saying to me "I'm still with you..."
I can't imagine my life without you...
I just want to tell her, "I can't believe I'm 30 and your gone from my life. I can't believe you died mom."
As I sit here sobbing I know what she would say to me, she would tell me to call out on Jesus for help.

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

I know Jen. I can't believe she is gone. I keep remembering back to the last weekend I had with her when she could laugh and talk and was still mobile. She was still trying to help me and take care of me and look out for my needs. It just seems unreal that she was here, just months ago and now she's gone. I just can't believe it. It hurts so much. It seems unbelievable. I can't believe she is gone. My life is forever different. It's not as bright... I see how short it really is...
I love you Jen. I'm thankful for you. And I'm so proud of you.
--Julie

Anonymous said...

And, that was Mom still speaking to you. I'm so glad you found that card.
--Julike

THOMBU1 said...

There is no distance in the Spirit. I often sensed the presence of my Dad when I was in the midst of Praise and Worship, especially at Church. It was if I could almost hear him singing and feel him rejoicing in the Spirit, but I knew that wasn't possible as he had passed away a few months earlier. When I asked the Lord why I was sensing the presence, I immediately recieved the understanding that Dad was with Christ, enveloped in His Spirit, and when I entered into worship and praise, I know God inhabits the Praises of His people, so I understood that we, my Dad and I were not that far apart. I know this doesn't make a lot of sense, but take comfort child of God, for joy comes in the morning!
tom

Jennifer said...

Tom that was beautiful and makes perfect sense! Thank you for sharing that. Having loved ones waiting for us in heaven makes heaven all that more real and sweet. God bless you.

Anonymous said...

Jennifer & Julie,
I know how you both feel. It is hard but you can not let satan take away any of your light.
He will use this as a means to try and put depression in on you. You MUST tell him to get behind you and shout out to Jesus.

Prayers are still going before our father in Heaven, that your Mother prayed for you all these years.

A Romantic Porch said...

Bless you today Jennifer. I pray you feel God's loving arms around you. I'm so glad you found the card from your mom! xo rachel

Leslie said...

Jennifer,

This is Leslie Hollingsworth Liedy from Leesburg. My sister told me of your mom's website. I am so sorry to learn of her passing. Leah and I both know what you are enduring and 14 years later we still have moments. I have enjoyed reading your blog and have been blessed by it. I'd love to catch up...mamaotwins@gmail.com

Leslie

Leslie said...

Jennifer,

This is Leslie Hollingsworth Liedy from Leesburg. My sister told me of your mom's website. I am so sorry to learn of her passing. Leah and I both know what you are enduring and 14 years later we still have moments. I have enjoyed reading your blog and have been blessed by it. I'd love to catch up...mamaotwins@gmail.com

Leslie

Leslie said...

Jennifer,

This is Leslie Hollingsworth Liedy from Leesburg. My sister told me of your mom's website. I am so sorry to learn of her passing. Leah and I both know what you are enduring and 14 years later we still have moments. I have enjoyed reading your blog and have been blessed by it. I'd love to catch up...mamaotwins@gmail.com

Leslie

THOMBU1 said...

I read your Dads' new blog today. Great start!

Anonymous said...

I miss your dad's old blog, right now it just seems like he isn't talking about romance at all or any of the life things. Please tell him that we don't need the notes of a preacher, we want to hear about life and love. It is really just not the same without your mom. Our prayers are with you

Anonymous said...

I love your new look! You did a great job! I love you... --Julie

Anonymous said...

Beautiful blog, could you make the pink in the middle just a little lighter so it isn't so hard to read for us old folks! :)

~~Deby said...

I was thinking about this today---when a daughter loses her mother- Mine died almost 3 years ago of brain cancer...it sometimes feels like yesterday---a younger brother went home too--Nov.24th---2 months ago---Brain cancer----grief is hard---but Jesus is the soft place we land...HIS WORD our strength--out tears in HIS bottle....I personally think right now, my bottle is overflowing---but it is about HIM---and our LORD will keep holding us..
Deby